Meet Soul.Power.Light’s Karen Maloney
Life wasn’t always how it is now. To most people I may look and appear the same as always, but INSIDE I feel like a completely different person. Just like a computer, I’ve got a whole new operating system. I’ve upgraded and revolutionised my internal world, shifting what I think and believe about myself. Everything comes from within – ‘as within, so without’. It’s been life-changing for me and I know it can be the same for you!
Now I can see CLEARLY that for most of my life I lived from a place of fear. I lived my life in ‘freeze’ mode, always on edge, anxious and afraid to be myself. I judged myself harshly (always trying to be perfect) and my brain went a 100 miles and hour. But for the most part I never realised there was anything wrong with that. It was my ‘normal’. I thought it was a sign of my ambition and drive. Out of an unconscious fear, I lived from the level of my mind. I thought if I can think, plan, control and rationalise everything in my mind, I would be safe. That need for control provided me with a sense of safety and security inside, that I didn’t feel in the external world.
Why you make ask? Well now I know that our environment creates our programming. From our environment, or in response to our environment, we create our sense of self. Our environment is made up of our family, society, religion, education, culture etc. We all have programming from our environment that limits us or fills us with fear in some way. Mine was from my Dad’s drinking. As a child (before age 7), he would come home drunk and wake me up in the middle of the night to tell me he loved me. That may seem cute but for a young child it was scary and unknown. I used to hold my breath (freeze mode!) when I heard him come in and pray that he wouldn’t come into me. From this experience, my nervous system was programmed to ‘live in fear, not feel safe, and hold my breath in hope that I wouldn’t draw attention on myself’. As a result I closed off emotionally, became a control freak and always had my defences up. These programmes lived with me (unconsciously) until my 30’s and affected every aspect of my life (as they do for all of us). After many years of an inner journey, I finally connected the dots and began changing the programmes.
Now I live in a very different space internally. Unconscious limiting beliefs and programmes no longer control my life. I live with a sense of inner liberation, peace, joy, grace and flow. You may not have had a drunk Dad coming home to you, but you absolutely do have limiting beliefs as a result of your environment, we all do. We all learn who we need to be, how we need to be, and what we believe from our environment. Everything we do is a learnt ‘program’ or habit. A lot of these are highly beneficial, but if there is any area of your life where you keep seeing repeating patterns, it’s because you have an unconscious belief that is holding you back. The hint is in the name…it is UNconscious. They’re our blind spots.
Now I work as a women’s INSIDE OUT Coach, Soul Awakener, Energy Practitioner and Podcast Host. My mission is to help women ‘reprogram’ themselves by revolutionising their internal world, changing what they think and believe about themselves and creating more empowering beliefs. Everything we are looking comes from within. Ultimately EVERYTHING stems from what we think and believe about ourselves. I do this through a mix of mindset work, spirituality, self-mastery and fun. When we free ourselves of these unconscious patterns, we come back to wholeness, realising we are enough no matter what. We shift from fear (external ‘ego’ world focus), to faith and trust in ourselves and our life (internal ‘spirit’ world focus).
Connecting to the timeless part of us (our spirit) is key on our path. We are all a spirit connected to a body, having a human experience. Once we are fully awake to this truth, we see our pain or challenges as lessons for our growth. We realise that life is our school, and we’re here to learn and evolve into our highest self. It’s not easy work, but it is the most powerful work we can do.
Before using my life experiences and retraining as a Coach & Energy Therapist, I worked in the fast-paced area of Events Management. It was perfect for my high anxiety and kept me distracted from the inner work I needed to do. Eventually my constant ‘go, go go and need to control’ attitude led to burn out & becoming disillusioned about what it all meant! But it was only through these hard blessings that I finally took responsibility for my life and started my internal rewiring.